How can one read the intentions of others when it is so carefully crafted in words that will make your heart melt ? break down the walls that you thought would never come down. These were the words that came to me from someone that almost found herself shattered to pieces based on the falseness of intentions all wrapped with a beautiful bow.
How can you tell though? But you eventually see everything for what it is. You were the conquest, the chase, the challenge not really anything else. Like anyone else the belief in words are short lived when actions change and people forget the promises they made blindly to someone else’s soul. Some love the tit for tat games, some are all about me me me. How do you get over this when someone takes you on the most beautiful ride and then in an instant you feel like strangers?
I can tell you how… not by beating yourself up about why you allowed this person in but by understanding that all the walls you had up and all the things you didn’t want happen happened. Some in such a short space of time. Some love the idea of being in love.. some care for the sexual side of relationships more than they do the emotional connection. Some sabotage things just so they can move on to the next conquest. I smile when I see these things happen.. it gives a whole new light to things.
It brings you to your core but more so it teaches you the strength you are made from. Sometimes relationships go from one to the other and as the years go by you look at someone and say .. “I have never felt this way before” and I have come to realize that line may be true at the time but sometimes someone else can come along to make you understand that you can feel even more intensely.
Souls connect.. sometimes for a short time.. sometimes for a very long time.. they step in when you needed them too and sometimes they fill a void that could not be filled before. To be able to move on we have to understand why we allow these things to happen.. why do we trust? Why do we need to feel the intensity? Why do we want things so badly … it all comes down to us wanting to feel genuinely loved and when someone hurts that we feel everything is destroyed within us and we never open up again.
On our beautiful journey lies the souls that will rock our very core.. the ones that come in the beautiful bow that you think that you would never want to be without but sometimes you must do what is best for you… Honoring self is sometimes the hardest thing to do. Listen to that voice within.. it never steers you wrong. Change the stars someone once said to me but you cant really change the stars can you ? you can only view their alignments differently. It is all up to you,, it is all up to me to make anything that is in front of us work… if a link is weak the chains will eventually break.
Don’t worry to much on the breaks but concentrate more on strengthening the piece you were left with.