I have been having so many conversations lately. Many of which makes my soul weep. Many of which gives me different insights on how people perceive life, how weak they are sometimes in giving in to the matters of the heart, how strong they are to face the trials and tribulations that come their way and most of all how the reactions and actions of others tug at their heart strings.
I have so much information in my mind that I wonder sometimes how people get through their days. It often concerns me. I realize that all I talk to is searching for that one thing that is so hard to attain sometimes. That peace within. That happiness that they think lies in someone’s smile, someone’s message, someone’s call, someone’s email, someone’s ability to make them feel they are worth something.
I am not excluded from the equation, we all go through that period. I talked to a friend recently and her words to me “I just want to know so that I can move on”. Funny how your soul waits around for permission to do what is best for us. We stay, hurt ourselves because we feel we have lost, we feel we don’t know how to get back on our feet and get the strength to face the world. We feel like we cannot find happiness in anything, we fear, we cry, we hurt and most of all we give others permission to do whatever they like with us. Ever wonder sometimes how it can be so easy for others to just not call, not text, not email. They just vanish sometimes? Making you wonder was everything a lie?
Why though? Why do we allow it? Why do we feel this, is it insecurity within ourselves that we think we cannot make it? Is it not trusting the journey and the people that are there to help us grow? What is it that we need ? The reassurance that we are worth something ? We are more than something. We are everything.
There is a song that I heard in the movie “The Greatest Showman” “This is me”. It is time for us to be who we are, no apologies. We have to not allow the trampling of our hearts, not allow others to devalue us, not allow the people that say they are friends to use you for their convenient gain and then toss you aside when they are done.. IT IS TIME TO STOP. Walk away from the ones that mess with your soul, no more permissions to trample.. no more permission to others to hurt you. THIS IS ME .. NO APOLOGIES.. just beautiful in our own essence.